“Well done.”

“The master said, ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant’.” – Matthew 25:23a

“Well done, my good and faithful servant.”

Anytime I hear this, whether it be a new teaching or some other aspect, I struggle. Not because I see myself as a bad person or underserving, but rather because I’ve always been a people-pleaser. I struggle to say no, and the worst feeling in the world for me is letting someone down or not being able to help. I know what the Bible tells me about identity and I know nothing in this world can separate me from His love, but I struggle with a works mentality that what I do is what earns my place. What really earns my place is not anything I do at all, but only by the love and grace of my Heavenly Father am I defined as a beloved child of God.

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries for tomorrow – not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below – indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.” – Romans 8:38-39, NLT

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Encouragers Need Encouragement, Too

“Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:11

Over the years of my Christian walk I have grown to have a passion for serving. At the core of my being God created me for deep relationships and helping others. I’ve always struggled with my own self-confidence and self-worth, so relationships don’t come easy for me. However, I don’t want to see others hurt or struggle like I have, so I want to help.  When it comes to myself, I’m afraid to open up, afraid of misunderstandings, and if I’m being really honest, I’m afraid of conflict.

I became a “Yes” girl, a people pleaser. I set aside my own needs in relationships in order to help and encourage those around me. I grew into the role of encourager, and I truly love helping others and lifting them up, but inside I can often be hurting, hiding my own struggles until it explodes out of me. It’s not always on purpose I do this. I easily make myself busy, and I often forget to truly take care of myself.

Thanks to the discipleship and mentorship of leaders in my life, I am learning how to balance. Sometimes it feels like I’m a slow learner, as it seems like I go through this process a lot. But the great thing about this journey called life is we are all on a journey and we have grace. Encouragers need encouragement, too, and that means being open and vulnerable. For someone who constantly serves to lift up another, it’s hard.

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Finish The Walk

This poem was written in honor of the memory of Command Sergeant Major John Podhirny. CSM Podhirny was killed in a motorcycle accident two weeks after retiring from the Colorado Army National Guard. His last command was Battalion Command Sergeant Major of the 147th Brigade Support Battalion.

This poem comes from a special memory in my military career when CSM Pod encouraged me during my competition in the 2016 Colorado National Guard Best Warrior Competition. I had no chance to win, but I wasn’t there to win. I was there to better myself. CSM Pod saw that drive in me and encouraged me as I kept fighting until the end, when I could finally rest. His belief in me, as a young soldier, gave me strength to keep going until the finish line.

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History in Fellowship

“I will tell everyone about your righteousness. All day long I will proclaim your saving power, though I am not skilled with words. I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign Lord. I will tell everyone that you alone are just.” – Psalm 71:15-16, NLT

Recently, my husband and I were invited to the home of one of our elders for an after church lunch and time of fellowship. Although we have known each other for several years, and I even went on a mission trip with this elder a couple years ago, most of our conversations were more “in passing” while at church. This would be an opportunity to be able to get to know each other on a deeper level in a relaxed environment.

It was an absolutely incredible time of an older, life-experienced couple taking in a younger couple to pass on stories and knowledge. It wasn’t an intentional teaching time, but it was sharing stories back and forth and the ways we’ve seen God working in our lives, His provision and never-failing faithfulness and love. It was encouraging and awe-inspiring to hear this dear couple’s perspective of the history they witness and experienced during their lifetime.

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I Tried to Reach Out…No One Listened

Recent celebrity suicides have once again sparked the conversation on mental health and ending the stigma associated with seeking mental help. Every other post on social media these days is someone saying in some form, “If you’re struggling, reach out to me. It’s okay to ask for help. I’m here for you”. These posts and the conversation is strong for a week or two after another event, but then they fizzle out again. But for those who struggle with mental health, the battle doesn’t end. It’s a daily battle.

I’ve experienced this struggle. I continue to struggle on a daily basis. When I was at my worst I tried to reach out. I was told I could, there was no shame in reaching out for help. But I was shamed. I was shunned and left out, left alone with the fight for my head. No one was there. No one listened to my heart. No one held out a hand to help pull me back out of the pit I had fallen in. The true hearts of those around me were revealed when they went back on their word that they would help me. Instead, I was pushed away and left behind.

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